Gone were the days I measured my sewing success by productivity. My early years were a fury. MAKE MAKE MAKE which indeed it’s was a great drive for learning. Each and every mistake was than avoided or less damaging. My goal was not to create a consistent style but to learn every possible technique. Be exposed to knowledge no matter the result. Than the following years were about creating a sense of self-style. Only sewing clothes that were more likely to be a success. The fit and style being the priority. I didn’t seeked quantity; I needed wearability. An atitude that limited the number of failures but caused a creative block. I missed sewing clothes that were out of the box of my personal style. Patterns I used for furthering learning and nothing else.
How I can sew less but still fulfil the need to fail? I don’t have the same luxury of time or even the thirst to create 50 garments a year. But to fail is important. Failing means one stretched their skills. Failing is not easy. It can be frustrating if sewing time is of the most preciosity. I need to create an environment where I can fulfil my paradoxal sewing needs: I am an explorer. I need to make things out of a perfect sewing plan and allow myself to fail more often. Allowing the satisfaction of proving a skill and scratch my head to figure things out from time to time. I also need to sew items for long term and sustainability. To create the wardrobe of my dreams as my style evolve. That paradox will play its hand in 2017. I’m excited about my sewing journey.
My blog. What 2017 holds? I been meaning to makes changes that didn’t materialised during the last 2 years. That frustrates me. I want to update it and change it’s format. This blog suited me 5 years ago but not for a while. I will be here as I always am. I want to cave some time to fix it but I’m not delusional to the my use of time. When given a choice I will sew. I always do. How frustrating is to not have control of that hunger to sew. Sewing is my drug. I don’t drink, I don’t party like I used to, I work hard so I guess we all need something to loose ourselves. The sewing will always come first.
This is an unusual first blog post of the year for me. I enjoy my yearly review. I feel cheating you out of that but with half of 2016 items unblogged it feels so strange to write a end of year resume. I may still do it. It gives me a sense of achievement to look back and even if this space only inspire one person to sew my goal on the blog is fulfilled.